Interview
By Alex Chaney
 1.
Jillian or Muse or Lost model, let's start from the top and ask the obvious,
what are you known to the world as?
I am what I am, you can interprite it in anyway you please....
2. Could you paint us a clear mental picture as to what are you or consider
yourself to be, a model, an artist, an adventuring soul?
I am a dreamer and a visionary , i have been givin many outlets to use
for the purpose of communicating and expressing my soul.
Deep inside the thing that has pushed me to the ends I have gone has
always been a deep passion for music and the creation of it.Being aware
of the power of music it was never something I was willing to turn over
to anyone else.
So in order to protect it, to keep it true and pure I utilized every
other gift and spent years developing skills that in ways can create not
only the music but create a way for it too reach from my soul to your
headphones. Understanding that I had the gift of good looks and fairly
adapt mind I used it to build a foundation for the the future.
So I suppose I would say I have been blessed with the ability to become
almost anything, as well as the ability to absorbe and utilize knowledge
and information at a fairly decent rate.
3. What got you into modeling and what are some of the most intriguing
adventures you've been on?
The doors opened and I went in. What I found on the otherside was a bit
less of a fairy tale then I first imagined.
I started at 15 and got caught into the drugs and games. I had to walk
away for sometime and then I returned only to find myself in another less
then fairy tale land. But I countinued I moved up regardless of the hunters
and the slaps across my face.
The modeling indutry is like all things, there is an equal amount of
evil as there is good. If you walk on the right path you can experince
beautiful people, places, and see some of the most amazing things in the
world. If you get caught in the wrong circles your life can become a living
nightmare of drugs and abusers with million dollar houses and Versace
suites.
I recently spent two months in Italy and worked with some amazing photographers
and saw some of the most beautiful sites in the world.The plus side of
being a model is everyone wants you everywhere which has opened many doors
for both my music and art. There are millions of stories so I have been
writing a book with all of them because they all belong together.
4. Your site is at times very dark and always thought provoking and
almost never do you smile. What are you trying to get across?
How many of the smiles you see on the internet, on TV,in commericals
are real?
I made a decision not to join the rest of the world in the game of doing
what you think other people want you to do. I smile when I feel the urge,
when it is real. I will not greet you or anyone with a fake smile. I would
rather say nothing at all then say something I dont believe.
The point is for you to take from it what you will and see what the point
is too you, because I can only create the art, I cannot create the
reaction or control the interpatation.
 5.
Could describe yourself, and I mean your inner inspirations that make
you who you are?
My inner inspiration hasent changed since I was a child, it has always
been the same something stronger then the world, stronger then brokeness,
stronger then addictions, it is a love a passion for humanity,
for peace, for love, for hope...........it is enough to drive me to the
ends of the earth and the darkest holes at times and back. It is finding
beauty in the ordinary, it is not giving up or giving in.
It is the core of all I am, in ways the work comes from the inside out.
6. If you could describe your most perfect day. A day in which
everything was perfect, how would be go and where would you be?
I would wake up next to my love, stay there in the warmth till I had
to move into the kitchen, where I would share tea and morning coversation.
Then go out and take a walk by the river or in the park in the City. Afterwards
go and sit and write for an hour and think and absorbe what is around
me. Meditate for a half an hour and then start working on music. Of course
on a perfect day God shows me peices of heaven in music. Lose myself in
creation till I break open and my soul comes out and it is captured immortally
in sound. Then once I am finished ( which never comes) go and make a few
phone calls connect to the ones I love. Then of course open my email and
find a new dreamer who found me or find another artist who creates from
the heart. Then go back and mediate and plug back in again. Then walk
over the bridge while staring at the city of dreams, back to love and
then go out and explore the world with another dreamer. I suppose a perfect
day for me is more about the emotional, spiritual and creative aspects.
So in ways I have them often these days, in fact lately most days are
beautiful each more then the last.
7. What is your definition of funky?
funky = anyone who is willing to do something diffent, unique, go against
the crowd....
 8.
What makes you funky?
what do you think makes me funky?
9. What should we expect from you in the coming year and who should
we keep and eye out for?
Lots of things, music, art, images, film, ...........there are many things
falling together, more each day. The best way to keep in touch is to keep
watching the site and I also have a mailing list of sorts, although I
only do a mailing once every couple months.
10. Now it's your turn for verbal release. What do you want to
say to the Never2Funky family?
If there is one thing I have learned the truth will set you free and
the worst decisions are the ones you never make.
food for thought
- Jillian Ann
Jillian Ann
www.JillianAnn.com
= always changing with new music images and writing
LostModel@aol.com
Po Box 1170
New York, New York
"Make the ideal penetrate the reality"
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